Biomechanical Enlightenment and My Hip Surgery
I had my second hip surgery Tuesday. It was a profound violation of my body. My bone was replaced with a metal joint. In a sense it is a profound attack but of course it is for the purpose of healing a part of me that was unrepairable.
It was a very very deep experience. I recorded this episode while actively in recovery and on pain meds. In a way I feel deeply violated. I recorded this episode for my own practice and because I need this kind of deep self validation in my body right now.
I hope that you are able to enjoy the journey with me. It is a very long recording so feel free to come back to it in pieces as needed.
During this podcast I am very much in recovery laying on my back with my walker and a urinal by the bed. I have everything I need right here by my bed so that I don’t have to get up and walk into the kitchen or the bathroom. I am snuggled into this little womb or cocoon and after a certain amount of time I will emerge transformed. My body will work magic in ways that it hasn’t been able to for a long time.
But first I need this deep safe space to heal and recover. I want to share it with you. As you listen to my story about having faith and believing in yourself I want you to consider my body how I am laying on my back how it is quiet and safe with music gentle music in the background and how I am touching myself especially along the axial core.
Towards the end of the talk I discuss touching myself between my two big toes. I talk about how we can feel ourselves touching ourselves in a way that doesn’t require any kind of external awareness or confirmation. I can touch my toes together down at the end of the bed without ever seeing them but I will explain to you that I am not using my feet to do it. I am actually moving my whole leg starting in the groin to bring myself together and touch myself as far away as the big toes. It’s pretty neat.
That sense of self touch and self confirmation extends, I explain, all the way up through the body and the neck and the face. It is a physical circuit of self awareness, pure self-awareness. Please join me on this journey (and feel free to take it in smaller pieces if need be).
The podcast:
Three Bones Theory 
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